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sometimes i wish i could freeze one moment and keep livin it, i wish you could just pause the emotion and live in it forever, man that would be cool. i feel like im so much older than ma years, and that i have done much more than most people my age, infact i sorta no i have, i remember the talks you used to have where you would talk about the person you wanted to be, i always wanted to do something big and ourtragous, something really cool that people would be like yeeh i wanna do that!, i think i have done it though, im pleased i have but i wanna sorta reach for a new goal, i want to persue something again that is good, not ordinary and unique, but what im not to sure yet, i have an idea, but .... i think i need to work on it a bit more.

i hate the things that play your mind, its the things that are your weaknessess, i think everyone has there main weaknessess, but sometimes there stupid things, things that really shouldnt bother you but... they do. i think a self confidence flag goes up when i think about it proply and past things, i wanna be able to let it go ... but... i just dont no how to. i dont how to say it, or what to do about it, but im doing so much better than i was, some things you just want to talk about, things you want to get off your own chest about things, but you get scared that a reaction you dont want is going to happen, like a bomb off in your face and you just wished you hadnt said anything at all, or the person to take it the wrong way when you ment it in just the way to get it off what you have been feeling, i supose somethings are better off inside.
i think everyone has a question that they always wonder about in there mind about someone that they want to ask, but they dont no how to say it or bring it up and they dont want the other person to feel offended or take it the wrong way.

if i look on ma stuff from what it was this time last year, its so much different, its like im sorta a new person but im not ... im exactly the same ... i just now have a bit more common sense.
but ... i love personal stuff.