~ wooly jumper~

it seems like im getting what i think i want out of life, maybe i am? maybe the chances everyone takes for granted are actully the chances that need to be taken. im sick of the feeling where your caught between something, something you want and something you need. i supose people get caught in things like that often?. im not sure.
i got the job, the job that is suposed to now get me into the media world, the world that i now think i want to be in, well no, infact i do want to be in it, i love to edit and i am going to do it, like i said last time, if i want something so badly, ill get it. i dont see why people arnt so ambitious, there all so snailed away in there houses, not wanting to change there outside life incase of danger, or something there not to familier with. but im sick of the familier things, im sick of not having a risk of even something stupid to take, why live you life so rediclous? your here once, make the most of the things you have, i supose you wont be able to really do it again will you?.
i think the weight loss is going well, infact its going to well that im gunna have to slow it just a tad. i want to be thin again, its another one of the ' i am going to do it' things.

Why do people moan about there partners, they seem to find there faults pick them apart and base things just around them. men dont really do it from what i have come across, until i discovered mike at work was sick of his girlfriend ... we all get sick now and again, but apartly he is sick of everything, he is sick of the arguing, he is sick of the bickering ect. so why the fuck are you with her? stop moaning do something about it and find someone that remotely makes you happy... there hard to find, but get looking the longer your with her, the less time you have to find the one you will actully want to be with.

have you ever said something you regret, some words that sort of haunt you like a bad dream?
you dont mean them yet they have come across so strong you dont no what to do about it, if you talk about them again then well, you could be doing the wrong thing totally. shut you mouth i supose ill tell myself, i just wish they were a stranger i could disingage.