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springs here and everyone knows it, its the smells of fresh cut grass, the birds are all singing and for some strange reason i always seem happier this time of year, sun is none stop and my skins becoming a bronzed body again, the sun does great things to everyone and everything, but with spring as it is, then it only the humidity of the sun and the airs scent that can make even a blind man see where he once belonged.
a few days ago it was earth day, i bet not alot of people new that, they will have been to busy helping drop litter and contribute to what we think is making this planet dangerous and heat up... i personaly think thats bullshit, the earth will always heat itself up as it is now, and cool itself down, just like one of my favourite places in the world the lake district proves, with giant moutains covered with lush green grass and trees that are centurys old, with lakes that seem like they have been randomly placed but hold breath taking views, this place was once a giant glacier, but now, as nature intended, its melted away leaving the scree on the side of the mountains and gigantic pools of water from what was once there. natures an amazing thing we need to stop and look at, but we as humans think we know what going on, can we even predict the weather correctly?
i agree that yes we are contributing to the earths carbon gases, but please can you tell me what would happen if the earth decided to erupt a volcano, or maybe two, it would more than likley produce more gases than we are, and this is what the planet is making itself, so if it can deal with years of eruptions from its own causes it can deal with the gases that to the earth are so weakly produced, its not an exuse for us to carry on the way we are, but hmm, we need to relises where not actully doing as much harm as we think we are. its all goverment run, its there plan to keep us under the thumb and give them more money.

im due a date with the dentist, someone that i have always hated since i was younger, i cant remember the age but i remember the time and the place, sitting in the dentist chair i heard the dentist say, we need to do an operation to remove your eye teeth before they come in properly, to a teenager i was, this was one of the most horrific things i had heard for a while, i froze and tried to emagin it was all in my head, this man covered with a strange micheal jackson germ sheild was telling me he wanted to get in my mouth and rip something out that was mine.... i wasnt pleased about it, after all they were mine, no one likes things taken away from them, but he did it anyway and a trip to the dental hospital occoured, so off i trundeled with the dreaded gut feeling holding my dads arm so tight my knuckled where white. the next thing i knew my name was called i was changed into the flattering hospital gowns and made to lay in the hospital bed as they knocked me out, with anithetic, not there fists.
the next thing i remember is waking up to see a man with blood all around his face being carted into my ward, that was petrifying, i knew my face looked like that and i couldnt see it, or feel it. after getting home i relised that well, the hosptial had given me what was rightfully mine back to me, my teeth in a brown bag, how nice. but they hadnt given me the right to eat, with stitches in my mouth i couldnt eat anything other than jewish penacilin ( chicken soup with parasetimols ) for a good three weeks. now, with a due date of a cheak up and now 1 of my teeth hurting a bit im worried this nightmare could happen once again, i think its just my mind on overtime again, but i am thinking of canceling, my thoughts are night are starting to get worrying, i hate the dentists.

im working on palate discipline i am, but my problem is i cant help myself, i eat the things that appeal to me that are good, i eat the veg that i like, i drink copius amounts of water but when im not, im slurping down coffees, eating free samples, chocolate ... forget it im not good with it. food is really a total sexual experience for me at the moment, with no boy pal around what else is an orally fixated girl to do, belive me im sending signals out there to find me the right kissing partnet but all im getting back is ice cream and cookies.
its now midnight, and well the chocolate i consumed about 2 hours ago is wearing off, my eyes lids are closing one at a time and im fighting with them to keep them alert but i think im failing.
i think ill dream of things that dont include dentists, well ill try to anyway.