~ stand up ~

whats the deal? ... i thought rock climbing was on rocks not with something else. its annoy me now, im starting to get the really nice feeling of fuzziness. i wanna reverse the clock and leave it, not say anything at all and just leave it as it is, ive now had enough of stuff, i think its that shit ov karma coming back on me, nice one. do you think animals like badgers and dogs have problems to? apart from where there gunna sleep and what there gunna have for there dinner?
i dont no why im like this, but i supose i am, you crnt change a person but a person can change themselves, but i dont mind if you dont change, i am happy with you this way really.

god it is so cold today, i think i might have a layer of frost across my bed, im sure my covers have gone stiff, or maybe its just me, do you ever think your soul and your heart are the same thing? they must be, or they must feel the same things at least, i think they must be neigbours, or at least best friends. i think mine needs to shout up, but it needs a listen.

im in a really big state of wantin to scream as loud as possible, i want to ither scream so loud that my throat falls out, or kick the shit out of something or someone and do it so hard my body falls apart, i want the sigh of relif to come but at the moment its the build up. i just wish the relif was now due, im totally and utterly gone with it, so much its turned things off, things that i dont want to be turned off. if the hot and cold front wasnt put on then the water would just be normal .... but its not and for fuck sake relise that.

how easy is it for the tables to turn on you? quite fast if you do it so right. when you feel pissed off, you sorta relises that, and i think im one of the worst people i no to be pissed off, there is normally something along the line that will get its backlash, i would like to just get absolutly fuck off my face, to the point where everything is all good and i feel like a cloud.

its back to the couldnt careless, and i seriously think im guna cause some damage sooner or later if i stay like this, peoples faces that piss me off look so tempting, i would love to rearrange them into a shape off my choice, i dont think violance should be the way, but fuckin hell it feels good.