~ take a vacation ~

i think im getting back in the routine to blog everyday, i wrote one last night and now ive got an eurge to just write something again. have you noticed that the path that you never chose has really chosen you, what you aim for you normally get totally different, not all wrong but in small but important things in your life, and in some cases all around. i wonder if its just a trick to keep your life exciting and to belive in yourself? so you dont expect what is going to happen next, because if we new what was to happen next then we wouldnt be very, ambitious? im not sure, im looking to deep into something that really has no answer. but thats my problem, it doesnt have an answer, but i want to no the answer because i dont no it, so please answer with an answer that cant be answered, are you still with me?

i decided to go out riding again this morning, and at 6 in the morning there just a few cars on there way to work, baby rabbits are out the birds are singing and you can tell what kind of day it will be, a one where the sun shines hot, everyone has a smile on there face that seems to bring people together, and the day becomes a good day, but a good day is never really spoken about, but if its a bad day, you will sure enough hear about it before anything else, again ... why is that, why do we talk about the bad things first and forget about the good things? its asthough there not as intresting to us, people would prefur to hear about how you had fallen down a 300 foot well and broken your coller bone, shattered or knee and now have no spleen that to hear about a great day out with someone, or someones child being born, were all really disgusting and crude people, we lie and we cheat and we are horrible people, but most of us love each other for it.

have you ever needed to tell someone to leave you alone? but really mean it? well for all you people that have that problem but it seems to be persistant, use the words that seem to work, the only words that seem to work, fuck off. there is no other words that mean the same, go away, leave me alone, dont bother me again just dont work, you need to be more blatent, or you could give some tugs on heart strings, but i think fuck off sums it up all well. the act of love seems to get you into situations that your not really pleased about a few months down the line, but can it just only get better? i think maybe ive just tempted fate to make it worse.

my ears have developed a passion for the accoustic gutair, maybe because im getting ok at it now, i dont no what anything means but my fingers make the tune and i no if its right or not, music is a gift to all of us and i would love to meet someone who didnt like music, id make them listen to it for the rest of there life, every style and beat there brain would be flooded with sounds.

back to riding though, ive stopped talking about it for a bit, the times when it got to the point where i thought i had stopped fully, but no alas, im back on the things that seem to give me goosepimples when ever i hear an engine starting up, the things that seem to make me feel like a totally different person, the best hobbie in the world, with it being getting close to summer and to the jumping season getting nearer, jumps are now being built with the jcbs, the machines that seem to help us dig faster than about 30 people with a spade and a passion to hit some really good air. technology seems to help you out at times. i hit the tracks and the jumps this morning and felt this summer is gonna be one of the best for it, more people seem to have got serious about it, so it means more compitions for me, out with the scummers and in with the pros id say old chaps.