~ what you waiting for ~

ahhh i think ive messed the best thing that has seemed to happen to me up last night, and i always do fuck things up in the best way. it was down to dum dum dummm ... andy! ... have you ever had someone ring you constantly over and over again, for over 2 hours? .. if you have had this experience then you will now quite simply that its not nice, and when the bloke that your starting to thinks amazin is sitting beside you, you feel totally and utterly shite. he said it didnt bother him last night, but you could tell by the look on his face that it did, and it must of alot, as now and again there was questions thrown in about him, the questions that you think of for a while until you can find the bottle to say them, but once asked its obvious that its on your mind, but i tried to tell him, and explain to him that i didnt want anything from him and well ... he told me he would text me when he woke up, but ive still had nothing and its 2 hours from when he said he would get up... were suposed to be goin to a mates bbq later, well pretty soon and ive still heard nothing, i really think ive fucked something that was to good up, AHHHH i wanna scream i actully wanna go up there now and tell him again that im sorry, and that ive blocked his number. fuckin hell i feel so shit for it, i spoke to him last night about it all but he was wreaked, and im not sure if he will remember any of it, which i am hoping he will. ive fucked it i no i have.