~ gored by lion ~

everything you pass or do in your life means something. people wont blink twice at something that actully is important to the world, instead... they carry on with there worldly bubble of life and take as little intrest as possible. things like the way the moons reflection on the ocean makes my eyes drawn to it, it facinates me in a way that hmm im not sorta sure of but i think its amazing, im scared of the sea, im really scared of drowning, not the sea itself, but the fact of something smothering me and not being able to escape it. the seas power and how its a whole different world beneath it makes me actully think of all the things we havnt discovered in it, or on our planet, there is alot of things that are best left un discovered, that way we have things to let our minds think about and try and solve ourselves.
we have made things that you wouldnt think were possible, for a bit of flesh and blood to be able to produce things that are complicated on how they work like engines and computers, if you gave yourself plastic and metal, you wouldnt really think of what it could do. but i think we all get to wrapped up in what we have made and what our lives are now around, that you dont actully relises, without the world as it is, we wouldnt have any of it.
no one really appreicates what there is and what we have, instead we dont see it, and people arnt intrested, kids arnt educated on what goes on on the planet, and why things are they way they are, instead there bothered about the latest shit thats out, all the man made crap that really isnt that neccasery.
i love the fact that a huge piece of frozen water is starting to melt... man kinds starting to wonder what there going to do, but yet again its going to happen because it actully needs to, we set up all these towns and citys and think were total indistructable, but 1 volcanic eruption can wipe something out, or a blast of wind. no matter what we do to what were on, its going to just go back to how it was.
i think people are the same, we have changed to much with the things we discover, were all to greedy, we all want something and most people will do anything to get what they want, they will go out of there way to hurt others and con someone for themselves to be happy, i no there has always been competition between each other, its ' healthy ', but i think stuff is starting to get way outa hand, but i suppose it has done for ages, the goverment doesnt care about how we all cope, they just find more ways to take money and gain power, no one actully sits and thinks yeh, make the most of what i have and actully find something to injoy outa your life, instead of everyone using each other to have something better.
im sick of the way you walk around hoping your not upsetting someone with the things you say, or expecting them to stab you in the back, people are shit, and i wish we wernt.
you hurt people without relising but you should relises, ive done it myself with things that are serious, but i dont think anyone will ever understand until you stand in the place of someone who has done things, the things you do make you see life on how it really is and, i think if your lucky, you see it from both sides that you should, you see it from the good, and the bad, and you can see what is right. where as, if you hadnt been in things you were, you wouldnt realise how to look at things. i supose you go threw shit to gain good though sometimes right??...
i think were all like sims but i wish we could all do things to put ourselves back upto happy.
i wish we could all just live ' normal ' for a few days so people could relises whats important in there lives and in life in genral.
i wish you could see into the future of your life, just to see the things you look forwards to if they they will actully happen, and will things luk anything like you think you want them to. i dont want to hurry my life but its sorta like waiting for christmas but not ... it hurts ,my head when i start to think about it.
i saw the best moon rise if you can call it that, the moon came up from the sea horizon a flame orange and in about 5 minutes it was out of the sea and low in the air but had changed into an ice white, i love how it happens and i love how it looks, things around us are ace, but no one seems to care anymore, but i wish they would, i felt like grabbing people that were passing by and sayin luk! dusnt it luk gud... but they would just be bothered about getting home to the plastic and glass television that will let them view some latest rubbish.