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the music things i have done which i never ever thought i would do has hit a glitch and i dont no really what to do with it, Liff the dude that made me start it all in the first place and got me doing it all, ended up turning out like everyone else in the world, he was only out there for himself, making sure he was getting what he needed from me, so i sorta seen it and decided to up and leave him taking my songs with me. he wasnt giving me splits with the money we or really he was making from the things i was doing, i can understand he has taught me stuff , he has done all the shitty voice coaching when i have needed it, ive used his studio, but really at the end of the day its me who has wrote the song, and me who is singing it to ... so really i am owed a cut in whatever he has made. otherwise he wouldnt have made that money right?.
now he wants to relises a album with some of my tunes on it, im not keen about it at all and im sick of egnoring my gut feelings, and i was right, i need to bring back the total cow in, and it appeared quite nicely when i saw him today, i was sorta proud of my self stupid as it sounds for doing it, instead of taking the easy way as i keep doing.
i told him i found out about the money he was making for the gigs we had done where i didnt get any cash, and i wanted my share in it, but he said he has invested ... get that .. invested the money into the music, and can i politily ask how the fuck have you done that? ... well dear beverley, appartly he has got some new stuff for the studio, but did he have the right to take my share in the cash?. NO. but, i no, its my own fault, i shouldnt of asumed i can trust someone, because once again someone has made me out as a twat. nothing new at the moment. so he changed the subject to the C.D , which was the reason i was there, apartly to make up for the money from the gigs he would give me split in the album once it was reliesed ect.. but im not happy with my things being heard by other people i no its totaly stupid, but im not, its my own personal shit so hmmm i dont want it publicaly heard it was bad enough with a gig with people hearing my songs. but i loved the way to make up for it... then i would get a spilt in the profits. what a fucking joke, do i have MUG writen on my fuckin forhead. so i told him simple and straight. and asked him who the fuck he thought i was, im not being taken for a joke, while he uses my own songs and i get fuck all for it, i new this was all to good to be true. so i think ill copywrite my songs, just incase he wants to uses them without my permission, which i hope he isnt that keen to do ...

i has such a weird dream last night... i ended up having a black hand, all the other parts of my body where white but for some reason i had a black hand, my job was to repair tvs, and i had to go to the local swimming pool to fix there tv above the pool, i had to use a reaaalllly high stool to stand on, and fix it wit forks :S fuck knows why :S.