~ dancing skirt ~

ive made my mind up with what i want, i think ill go with the andy option, ill give it the reasons of because he has what i want, well what i think i want at the moment, no one can really say what they want 100% as things change all the time, things like your out look on things, and your out look on what you want for your future, a partner in your life can step in the way of a dream simply because they dont want what you want, even so, when you do decided the different future aproach, you meet new people, the new people that seem to want the same thing as you, and they are living the life you want and want to live, you then i think will get attracted to the people that you think are the ' people of the time' . a change in your life changes not just one thing but it changes everything. i think with andy the change of personality of what i had is what i need, he is the easy going type, the one that will make a laugh out of everything and seems like if i want something different at anytime, he will just suport it, even if i wanted to change a career into grass picking he would just go with it and make sure i was with the best ' grass picking ' company i could be. its weird, he appreciates you in no matter what you are in, if you had a turnip outfit on he would still say you looked nice, even if he was lieing which with the ways he says it i dont think he is.
hmmmm life has alot of things lined up for you doesnt it? maybe this is the start of something that could be good? ... with him being in northampton for a few more weeks i can see what i want more than ever really i have time to think and all the things to go with it.

ive now got to go to nikeatas for her birthday, something i really dont want to do,i crnt be bothered with the stupid laugh you have to do when you pretend your injoying yourself. her family will be there so it will be even more... fantastic, just like when i went to steves family gathering, you dont really no anyone and your just sitting there thinking my shoes are so more exciting. ... god i am sooo excited. please help, please will someone come and save me from this exciting wonderful fun packed afternoon... i crnt see it happening, i might just ring andy and see how he is when im there, it will make the smile from hearing his voice look asthough im injoying myself.