~ ship shop ~

i think the view from where i am standing is full of starbucks coffee, baggy clothed men, and a religion of riding and singing. that seems to be my life at the moment, not that im complaning, aswell as the round the clock editing, that seems to have taken my mind and body even at 4 in the morning.
if found that my facination with tattoos and piercings is growing rapidly, a little strange i think?... i supose everyones different tho ay? .... i want a masterpiece tho, something a total work of art that wen im old and wrinkely will age with me and still look good to all them in the comunity centre, ill be a hip and hop granny.
i gave the quite smoking a try again, it seems to be failing misseribly... to badly infact ... so i think ill stop and just try and cut down even more, it used to be looked upon as normal, now smokers are devils we are evil to all, we should all be band! our toes and fingers cut off and left to go mental without any . . . we dont complain about things that non smokers do ... hmm im not sure what they do, but we dont complain... i think i might go and light myself up a death stick and injoy it to the max. death sticks all the way .... rock on.
ive hurt my leg .. its quite bad actully ... butterfly stitches dont really seem to work on this one, i think maybe the needle and thread will come and and pull me back together, but for the meantime i think ill just keep it wrapped up, humans should have an extra skin layer, why didnt god thing of that?... i think ill call tonight off and maybe go next week if can be bothered, or if im not washing my shoes.

i think im guna post some of my songs on here again ... they are more of how i feel at the moment, im thinkin of settin up the myspace music account but im still not 100% i think ill see how it goes ... music is the best way to things.

seeing as i am a girl and its now an uproar in most places of the world, the size zero ... my personal opinion of why girls are getting in such a state is men and fashion but mainly men, they have a fixed picture in there mind that men want the thin and non fat person, we all want ourselves to be like that, but to just let them no, a decent man will not be found with using that technique! ... i wouldnt like to be able to see my ribs so clearly and i dont think alot of men would like to feel there partners ribs when they cuddle them. but fashion doesnt help, there models are getting smaller so the sheep of the woman socitey are getting worse, bar the woman that have problems, they dont do it for a reason i supose...

god i think im just guna ramble on today just like always, but i love this thing, its great i can moan away just writing without having to bore people, the only people that will read this is if they want to ... so its optional.

My mates got me into the weird side of life more than i was, i just want people go cheak out 'mels hole' no this isnt a porno or something like that even tho i think alot of you would injoy it. but its one of the weirdest things ive really ever heard of and im still in the sway of what to actully believe, but really what ever you do, you have to listen to it!. ive always been into the odd things in life, the things that are un explainable, because well they intrest me because i think you want to no the reason behind it all? the weirder it is, the more ill be intrested it, i love the ghost side of life i really want to no what it is, ive heard loads of explanation of what they are and what there doing but i supose you have to make your own mind up. ive heard that ghosts are just a visual video of the important things about or reason the ghost is there, and the emotion was so strong that its stayed there, ive heard that poltergist activity is actully caused by yourself, and your own energy, i think there is about 50 or 60 different excuses of what they are. but it gives you something to wonder about and for your brain to keep active with.

i cant play other peoples songs on a gutair but i can play my own... i think its because you make your tune, hmmm its strange but its annoy me, i think im going to have to make some crazy person teach me some proper songs even tho, well ... i supose i dont need to play there songs do i bar my own?

ive just been informed that my mother and farthers good friend that lives right by st tropez is having a birthday bash! i fucking hate them words together, birthday bash! its like all the other words i hate ... cardy ... puddy and all the others, i think everyone has words they hate, but anyway get back to the point, he wants us to go over there to celebrate, part of me really wants to go, but only for the reasons of johnny depps house is situated about half a mile away from him, its nice weather and .... thats about it, the other sides that make me want to stay put is the fact as ill be more than likely bored out of my tescos trolley, maybe i might meet a dashing young chap! i think ill let them go themselves.