~ balance ~

oh my god, do people not actully realises that in this world that technology isnt THAT fantastic, yes i agree it can be great, it controls most things in this world but to get excited over something, well, like a bit of plastic just doesnt cut it for me, i would prefur to get excited over a cow being sick. wow, fantastic, a computer has been made with a bigger screen, wow, look a computer now has a faster chip, wow look there is now a new mobile with a microwave in it, yeah it would be cool for a microwave fone, but yet im sorry but its to stupid.
concentrate on something more important like ... hmm... what your going to wear today, or even if your sad and dont have any friends if your actully going to leave the house? ... emagin sitting in your house all day long sitting on the interent as a hobby, where as instead, you could be out with friends, or you could be out doing something else thats more productive. maybe even get some fresh air that we are so desprately talking about or .... getting a life.

i am so fortunate for the friends i have, i have alot, infact at times i feel like i dont have time for them, i love them all and well, i think there likewise for me. im going to miss them alot i think when i go, friends are friends and they really help you be the person you are, they keep you, well just you. places arnt just a place when your friends are there.
i feel bad for leaving the best friends i have, i dont want to seem like i am up and leaving.. but yet i am really? ... im sorry is all i can say and they can only be happy for me. like i would be happy for them.

the words i love you have shocked me and come out of andys mouth, there were meaning full and well... some what an impact on me. i felt like there had been a bomb go off in my head, a bomb that seems to give me shell shock for a few moments as i just said nothing, to soon i think dont you?... its gone on for a bit but now the words of i love you .... i LOVE you... loves a strong word dont you think? when you say it someone do you mean it? or do you just say to because its nice to say? . . . i think some couples say it to much, its a passive thing that seems to just come from each others lips to make the other one feel good, but they dont mean it as much as they do when they have thought about things... if you think about your partner look at them and relise what you love about them and then tell them, its meaning ful, it makes you feel good aswell as the other person, but when you just say it out of converstation it just .. well doesnt really mean anything does it? ... i think that means that less i love you's until you mean it, and more actions. i think that would make some realtionships a bit better.