~ hatch back ~

hmmm... im been moaning about men for a bit as you can tell if you read this often, but it seems as though i have relised why i have been. A partner in life its well something that you fall back on at times, when everything else in the world is crazy someone is there, its some one to tell you what you want to hear about yourself, its someone to complain to when you need to and well to have some to kiss and cuddle, you can have all of that and not love someone, but once you have has it contunuisy for a while afterwards you miss the little bits of the cuddles the kiss and well the way you were told things, so if someone starts to tell you, you let them without stopping them, but ive stopped it sort of, ive told andy exactly where we stand and, yeah i feel really really good for it, after the phone call to see if i was home alright at a stupid hour in the morning i started to think really he has got abit to into this?... well it took a while for me to think of something to say but i said it, it came out right and well he now understands, i havent had a text message this morning which i feel prety relived about. i really keep thinking about what i want, and im not going to just go with the flow this time, i dont want to hurt him and i have to put him straight, i supose that way its good for both of us, and we will both sorta relises what we want. i feel better for saying that and i think this is going to be a bit that i normally talk about might be able to just well disapear a bit, which i hope.

how corny is tv these days, i have a sad addiction to hollyoaks on a sunday morning if im about, my old lecturer used to do sound for them and left becauses he got so bored of it, im not suprised, its worse than emerdale. i feel like i have let myself down for this, its so sad, so patheticly sad i shouldnt be watching shit like this!