hmmm this can be an update on the situation ... his fones off that says everything really there is no more words need to be said to make it obvious, AHHHHHHHHHHHH i wanna scream so much! as you think you get something decent, something has to come in and fuck it up big style and yeh its come from my direction i wanna rewind time, i wanna just stop it, i dont no how many times i said sorry to him about it, but i hope he remembers, he is suposed to be coming to get me in 45 mins, looks like ive got more chance having a date with my bed and a cuppa watching some shitty telly, grr i cant belive it, ive fucked it up once again!!!! and this time it was with someone that i reallly reallly liked, and now .... welll.. i dont think ill hear anything back, infact i no i wont hear anything back off him, grrr why do i have to like him so much, its always when you like someone alot that it happens, it just well hmmmm seems to happen. AHHHH i need to get out to clear my smoked out head.