~ lintest ~

people arnt what you expect them to be, you think something or you set something on them, then they prove you wrong, you find that the muscle that has given you the trust strength to lay down your person is slightly tight or even snapped. the floor panel is showing its cracks and they look pretty crap actully, i thought my ice cream tube was worse but its not, by far, i relises the situation now, the floor panels quite shit and needs a good kick to straighten its self out against the wall. its the same old story, but the dream must be drunken, actully it is, ive been tripping over it, the rise has the fall and the falls always felt un supported, somethings always better than you in life... your not enough to things, its the same old story you just dont realise but its always closer to home than you think. but my mind eyes seems to be slightly open and dont like the view of it. its the time for crawling inside it and finding out what you want to no. i think this records stuck on repeat, i seems like ive heard it to many times, or maybe its the video?
its just the way it goes though aint it, i should of stuck with it, it seemed real, and maybe something that had more than rust and bodge on is better than most things that want to be better. why does the liquid and materal in your body try to push your dinner our of your mouth when the feeling of something that i didnt actully think was going to be possible to feel with this one? i dont no i seem to try and ask but the answers are poor.
ive found a new artist, its good and its different, it true feeling words, its simple and good, ive never heard it before and i dont think many bits of wood have but they should, no on second thoughts ... its mine. its got a ace beat and a good voice, its my new music maybe this song is my song for the month. the year. my life. its good.
some one give me a release plug, i think im going disolve inside, i dont no wether its my insides shutting down with it, or mind acid rotting me, what ever it is i wish the cause would kindly stop, its gettin a joke now, no im more than a joke, i just want to lie on my back and watch the cloud formations.
the fucked up souls in the world seem to be hiden, i think the open souls with the straight view of what there like are the slightly normal people, the people that have hidden bits about them are the ones that need some help, they will relises they will end up lonley and you dont test something that finds you a paridise for getting lost in. its fuckin scarin me. when did the wave come and take it all away? its more of a switch thats been flicked, there could have been at least a letter of warning or at least some kind of notice. im sad your gone, why dont you come back for a while? maybe you might like it? both worlds of it have come to gether and merged into one. have you ever let something be unmessy? get rid of the stupid attitude and just be normal. everyones out for an easy ride, but there is no reason in your case for a hair raise. my nerve endings have gone, its all lost and found. i think im going to send out a search party for you, maybe i could ask the yellow paper to do me a free ad? what section would i put it in though? i crnt do shop ads, they wouldnt work. i just wish you would pay a visit at least for a day in my world, but i dont think your going to.
all the effort was pointless, no matter how much i word this or say it your not going to see the point that ive aimed for, nothing will change and things will be the same, or maybe you could understand it all? i hope so, i need that bit back i enjoyed it, maybe the salt water is coming to often for it. i want a box for christmas, or at least something to talk to about stuff, stuff, what the fuck is it, i must be all the shit that goes round in your head that you seem to over think, you seem to over estimate, and you seem to feel. the thing is though, the box doesnt talk back.