~ half way home ~

i forgot farthers day this year, well not really forgot, i was to busy in my own world to relises the importance of why we have these days to our parents. there days to show you and make you see what and who your parents are, and my dad is cool, far from cool my dad is super cool.
i feel ashamed aswell as disapointed in myself to forget and put the day to the back of my mind.
the night before i was out on the heavy stuff of whiskey and when i woke my head and body regreted the decision to fill my glass again and again the night before. when i woke up in the hours or the afternoon i quickly went to the local shops to get him a card, what strange collections of cards, there is some total tatty cards with tacky saying that make you laugh in the way of feeling sorry for anyone that recives it. but thinking to the day that has now come and gone i should have gone out and spent time with him, done the farther daughter thing but we didnt. i supose we do it often though but its still not an exuse to forget such a day.
my dads a great guy, he has his moments tho, like when he relises that you have spent far to much on fone calls and he is the one handing out the cash to pay for it, or when you fancy some more money he seems to try and get the point across of money doesnt grow on trees, but as normal he will dish it out to me. im spoilt really, behond belief and i think i always will be, im spoilt with money aswell as love. me and my dad have had some great times, we still do, his humour and mine are the same were sick and twisted and seem to trigger each other off to make each other worse, we fix there house up together and for that he has taught me trades that i dont think many woman no, i can plaster, put up walls, do plumbing, do his main job of an electrican and most other things all because of this man, its come in handy already and i dont think i have ever thanked him fully for it, i should have on farthers day. bless him, through all of the main dad and daughter conflicts i love him to bits, i really do, i couldnt wish for a better dad than i have because there just isnt one. im sorry i forgot farthers day ....