~ buxton ~

haloween is so much fun if your a kid, when you were little there was nothing better than roaming the streets with a few freinds after you made your mother traul threw the shops trying to find you an outfit that no one else had, you then came home with the biggest bag of sweets and normaly about 20 quid, and went to bed with a stomach ache from eating far to much rubbish, but now you hear the knock at the door and you freeze, the curtains are close and the lights are on low and everyone keeps still its as though if you move they will hear you, you carnt bare to open the door to the annoy little shit that has there hand out asking you to give them something in return for the annoumus knocks at the door on random nights where they have ran off laughing. how do you turn so bitter about these scary monsters! you were one, at one point, but now... you hate them all! the poor children, not many people have good things to say about them, i mean come on, they steal your seats on public transport, they make far to much noise, and .... im starting to sound like an old lady. ill shut up now. the point is ... haloween next year im going to stick a sign in my garden telling them to fuck off. i hope they get the point.

how often do we take our senses for a a joke, we dont appreciate them as much as we should but we use them everyday, we should thank ourselves for having what we have, not everyone has the ' normal' senses, after a air bag deciding to try and give my head a hug it blessed me with taking my hearing away for a short while, i was pondering on wether to take a crash course on sign language, its a scary feeling when all you can hear is your voice mubble as loud as car horn in your head, and the response from another human was just soft mubbles, the thought as it would anyone drove round the roads in my head at about 80 miles an hour . . . am i deaf forever!. i didnt no wether to panic, or just wait for the noises of daily life to ease on. after about 24 hours, i got my hearing back but, ... but... i think i have learnt alot therw having something you use without asking to being missing for a short amount of time. i felt icolated from the day to day life, i talk none stop, i love it, i always have, and i am a born talker... but all i could do was basicly talk to myself!... god how you get sick ov your own voice, i was starting to feel sorry for other people that i spoke to, music then is taken away from you, and i had cliff richards celebration song stuck in my head. but what i have learnt is that you never realise what you have until its gone, its something that everyone knows, but not everyone gets what it means, i think you can use it for everything, for people that are deaf full time... not as a job, or that have gone deaf after being able to hear, i feel so sorry for them, hearing is fantastic, even the noises of the most annoying song you can think of.... i missed my hearing... and now its back, i want to welcome it with a party with loud music and constant noise.