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ive relised finally that not everything needs to be so together to feel right, you dont need that constant thing to relises that you have something right and real, its like strawberrys and cream, infact no i dont think strawberrys and cream go together that well, its like wotsits and ice cream, that sounds better they go together really well. i dont no why today of all days its click more than ever, could it be that its high tide and the moon and the sun are using its forces? i think not, but it might of helped. as i no myself without the help of someone else to relises, im a quite a senstive person under everything i do, and i think about things which dont even need to be thought about in that way. people around me influence me in what i think, they make me ither relises something or think about something, in the actions they do and what they say. im my own person but i think thats why i am more of my own person. for seeing other peoples problems i relises what i have myself, and what them other people dont have, likewise the can more than likely say the same thing about me, but for what i have they will never have.
a simple saying or reaction makes you relises that, someone close to you effects you in all ways possible, the things i do related to them i have now switched off to, and its just normal to me, i dont relised that most of what i talk about has something to do with the person that seems to just stick in my mind, i like to just be able to say, oh yeh we did this the other day, or yeh we were talking about that ... Simple things when you review them in our simple yet complicated minds can amount to so much, not to everyone but to me the thinker and the owner of my mind it means quite abit. but back to what i relised, words dont need to be really said to no that the feeling or the thing is still there, nothing has to be, the simple few things make you relises that it is, when i think about it, it makes me no that i have something real and something that not many other people have, i have an amazing partner that makes me feel things that are undescribable to anyone, its the feeling where you relises that the world, isnt actully as bad as it seems when you look at it. you see people that argue every single day or every other day, people that dont apreciate the time they actully have together, they dont care and i dont think they relises what they have infront of them. i dont no if these people are people that just have someone there to just have a ' fixture ' in there lives. when i think of my own relationship i appreicate every single second i am with the person i love, we dont argue (touch wood) and we dont bite at each other for the simple and stupid things in life, its things like that that i no i have something right, something that people look to have in there lives, and i have it, i have the bloke that people would die for, the one that makes me feel fantasic and safe when he puts his arm around me and its great, i now no that you dont need to have the reasurance of i love you, all the time, when you no no matter what mood you are both in that the other person loves you just as much as the other, for that it makes me feel great, but its not something sadly i relised as much, i think about him constantly, if its not if he is ok its just randomly, when i wake up in the morning he is there somewhere in the first thoughts till the last ones when i go to sleep. i feel like i have been selfish in a way over it, but now i no that words dont always need to be said.