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how do films make you sometimes have the false sense of hope that what happens in there untrue fairytales might happen in the reality of the real world, why do they make things that make some people belive that the false sense of hope is real. could you emagine what the world would be like if our favourite films became our lives, you would have shreak who lived in his swamp next door, then on the other side there would be freddy crooger, the world actully wouldnt be as far off as i thought....

i had work again with a producer again, its good fun and a laugh, i enjoy it, i actully feel like i can do the job right, i dont have a doubt or a feel of uneasy and i quite like telling people what to do and doing things the way i want to do it aswell as doing the job i enjoy the most. i think for finding a career that i want to do, that i am focus upon doing apart from riding must be media, its not really boring and its a hands on thing again, which is something that is a must for my short attention span to boring day to day work. but for the first time, i had to film a disabled group, i have a few doubts about it, which i now regret having, and i dont think i have felt such a rewarding thing in a while, i no there was more than just me that walk out at the end of the day and felt like we had made a difference into at least on of there lives, we wernt there to film with them, but they took an intrest in what we did, and to even just explaining to one of them lit up there face. the thing that didnt actully suprise me was, they are better to work with that kids the same age without a disability. but i no i want to do media as a job i feel right doing it.

i think i have wrote the best song i have ever written over the past few days, it feels good actully, i love it all, and i like how when i think about it all, i did it, i made it myself, its my own work and it feels good. i never thought this music thing was for me, but i think with a little bit of a push you enjoy it more, i like th e small amount of self confidence it produces, but its not the main stuff that gives me the good feelings, its the fact that my stuff is good enough and people thing im good enough to do things, its good for something like that its differnt from having a talent on how to ride something and its something i didnt really thought i could do, infact i didnt no i cud do it at all, its not something thats is a conversation talker, i dont want it mentioned to anyone, infact i like keepin it just quite, that way people that no me, wont here my songs. which is good.